Sometimes in life, you can go a long while, alone, adrift, detached, and without anyone to share your life with. Sometimes that can change though, and, in this case, change again. Back to the void. Back to emptiness, back to nothing at all, nothing at all forever, without love, there couldn’t be life. I had that happen to me with a woman I met from Switzerland. We encountered each other in a strange way, as all ways are, and we fell in love immediately. I remember our first meeting, where she was into poetry, and so was I. We both went to the same university, and she had on a toque, I love women with hats. We dated once a week for about six months before the cold steel of reality sent us on different paths, her into the unknown, and me one rung closer to hell.
Love tells us what we should and shouldn’t do.
I liked that she was original, creative, intelligent, and both carefree and careful. She melted my heart at her attempts to make my life better, which she did from that day until this. On our third date, it was obvious that we would get married, we were going to make each others ever after that much better. We talked about our home countries, the nazi’s and everything in between. My life was constantly high, even though I was not, because I knew that given a few days I would see her again. Love is funny, it comes into our lives and never leaves, and it sure wouldn’t have if either of us had been the ones directing our own destiny. She was cute, and constantly happy. Fun to be with, including when we played tennis. I like to think I could spend the next hundred years looking forward to the morning each night when I go to sleep, if I could only wake up next to her.
Women are the best part about being a man.
The Swiss don’t eat Greek Salad I learned, they mostly seem to eat squash. They also don’t like the nazi’s, but who does? I think history is determined by those who take action, not those who just ponder. So with that, I embark on a journey, how to win her back. I would love to hold her hand or gaze into her deep ocean blue eyes. I would love to go to Thailand with her by my side. I want a life filled with love, and hers sure was. Now that she has been gone a while, the journey might take a bit. I don’t actually know her last name, and to be honest, she wasn’t with her first. I have been so alone for so long and stuck in my ways, that I think it is time to change things up. I know I found my meaning in life, both work and love, but I only ever work and am lonely at the present. So join me if you want, in winning her back, I don’t know what will work, but I’ll start with a poem. As with any adventure, I could greatly fail, but failure is only failure if it stops the journey, the adventure is always there for those who wish to undertake it.
The adventure in life, is felt by loving every day.
My first step on the journey is to get a job as a Front End Web Developer, I think that while give me some income which I can use to push aside my own failures, my own inadequacies. Why I postponed the journey though, is due to circumstances beyond my control, tomorrow though I shall embark, and hopefully I can find the woman I am in love with, even if it means leaving my comfort zone, even if it means risking it all, even if I fail, because those who never start, always fail to succeed. I never wish for love to fail in anyone, so why should I accept it in myself. Love is life’s point, love is the miracle you can experience everyday, so with that, I change, and I hope the rest, falls into place.
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