Being Wrong

Everyone goes through that stage of life where you think your ideas are best, you are always right. Sometimes it comes as if in passing, other times it sticks with you your whole life. Ironically, it often gets in the way of actually being right. For when you cannot admit you are at fault, how are you suppose to grow as an adult.

Growing up you realize, that life is fun at all times

No matter who you are, or what you want to be, to tame the ego is a noble task and part of being human. We all think, at times, that despite all the evidence pointing at you, the evidence is wrong and so is everyone else. This can be called conviction, or if it happens often enough, a sign that a person has an altered perspective of their own life.
It matters what others think of you and to a certain extend, if they agree with your worldview
For me, the stage in which this occurred in late high school and early university. It has flared up from time to time since then, and I don’t always realize it. In that part of my life, I didn’t realize why my social life was not at optimum. In fact, I didn’t even think to think about it. Sure, I had friends and looking back, we didn’t have the deepest connections. Then university came along, and I still wasn’t having good social interactions. I realized later in my life, that came not from not listening, but from not understanding. All I realized I needed to do, looking back, is to meet new people. People more like me, not everyone can be a friend and it occurred to me, that I was the problem not the other way around. I had always assumed, that because we hung out, we were best friends, but as we went down different paths, I admitted to myself, I need new friends to help get the most out of my life. As far as I saw it, at the time, the misunderstanding came about from very different goals in life. I didn’t understand them, even though I pretended to, and they didn’t understand me.
Friends equal quality of life times happiness
In everyone’s outlook on life, it takes a while to build character a while to develop personality and a lifetime to become human. As I grew up though, and became older, I realized that there were many people I know, some friends, some others, that would claim to believe they were making a mistake (often times small), although, in reality, they were just saying it. They wouldn’t internally believe they were wrong. They faked believing whatever they said, they weren’t genuine and when it came time to act or do something of the sort, it came to my attention they believed they were right about almost everything despite all the evidence surrounding them.
Evidence is often the truth
That is one of the strangest things about being human, that for whatever reason people can lose their minds and still put on a show, despite being wrong they don’t let anyone know. Everyone knows that type of person where their ego is to strong, it takes a while to realize though and hurts when the matter brings up what they truly believe. Sometimes it can happen sober, other times not, and no matter what, they are going it alone.

Drugs kill, your perception of reality

I believe in life, what matters most is not what everyone thinks of you, instead, it matters what you truly do. When you let your ego get in the way, it seems everyone disagrees with you, and they do, the point the ego misses out on though is that no one actually cares if you believe you are right, they care about your actions and your ability to do whatever you want with your own life. For friends come and go, as they say, but get caught up in the ego and you will waste your lie away.

Being Human

As I age, I have realized that my ability to understand the complex workings of relationships is limited by the amount of time I am capable of spending thinking. I use to think that I understood peoples’ motivations well, and that I was a good people person. It seemed to be easy to understand why people did what they did and said what they said, but, as I age I have realized, that is not the case. My initial assessments are often wrong and everyone is so complicated. As I aged, I began to lose friends, and, after my mid-twenties, started to realize that as you get older, sometimes, even the people you like the most, become not-so-good people.

The friends you make, reflect you in ways that aren’t often apparent

This mostly happens for reasons I don’t really understand, but, when you are young you never think you will lose a best friend to Nihilism. Nihilism is the belief that there is no point to life. Personal life philosophies, for me at least, were mostly an intellectual pursuit. I didn’t really understand the difference they would make in the outcome of each of our lives. They make a difference though, a huge one, and everyone I know who didn’t have a strong belief in the point of life, faded out of the good, away from the light.

Ego and envy also start to play into peoples’ lives around the same time as some graduate from university. I don’t understand both fully, but in short those who choose not to accomplish the most in undergraduate, choose to hate people who do. Growing up I always viewed not accomplishing the most as more of a personal choice, it’s your own life after all. Now though, I believe that it ties back in to personal philosophies. Just because they thought they could slip through time, not working hard, and not really trying, it turns out, you become depressed and make fun of people who try, for no real reason, just to pass the time.

Many times, it is yourself who is not right

One of the biggest problems encountered as I left university and moved into the realm of the real world, is ego, it oftentimes means, you don’t understand your limitations, are quick to say you are right, and never care to learn. Being a lifelong learner typically means you are content, but, when you just say you are the best, you don’t work hard, you show off, and sometimes climb the work ladder without really knowing your stuff. You take other people for granted and lose friends, tend to never think the thought that you, yourself, might be wrong. And often, it isn’t even about something big, just might be wrong on one simple thing.

A personal philosophy comes from reading, learning, wondering, and asking questions. It something you build up over time, something important, something worth having. Without one, you lack motivation, lack common sense, and as you age, you tend to hang out with people with similar philosophies. When I was at university, I began to wonder if people really were going to stay my friends, I thought for sure that me and my close friends, would stay best friends. I was wrong though, they seemed to fade, out of my life. Slowly sometimes, and quickly other times. It wasn’t because of our differences in study though, it was due to many things, one of them being some didn’t have a life philosophy. They got jobs they didn’t like, failed to become their dreams, even though they could have. When you fail at your dreams at a young age, you begin to get envious and depressed, abuse alcohol and not care about anyone else.

My biggest personal failures that occurred in my twenties, tended to happen from either inaction, laziness, or failing at communicating. It is often that there is a misunderstanding among you and your friends. Those things hide in the whispers of what is said and over time build until the breaking point. At points in my life, I failed to act, I knew something regarding my friends and didn’t know how to fix it. It led to a falling out among our group. Finally, laziness seems to be something that affects almost everybody. It affected me at times, and that drove away opportunities to seek contentment long term. If I could have one more chance at my twenties, I think I would seek friendship among people who have similar life philosophies to me, not among people that just seem to fall into place. I would take a while to decide who is my friend, and I would make a better attempt to understand them. Now in my thirties, I know some mistakes that await ahead, and with some friends and people close to me, I know not to repeat them again.

I am my only caretaker

If, as you age, you keep one thing in mind, it is we are all limited by our time. Our daily time is limited by our goals and our goals are set internally by our primal brain, that means you have to try hard when you are young (and old) because if you don’t fully believe in a personal philosophy, one which is good, then when you wake up in the morning you will find your performance is less than stellar. Not that you will care, as you first start out, just as you age, the effort you put in to your dreams, is not ever wasted, for it makes you happy.

To seek contentment, you need to understand that, time is your ally, if you wake up everyday, thinking today is the day, that I will learn and have fun, prosper and ponder, then today will be grand and build a tomorrow fit for a man. Then if you work on your personal philosophy, from time to time, make sure it isn’t Nihilism, then you will find, as you age, time is key, it helps you grow as a human being. It enables the great and glorious, and no matter the end, it is the moment that perspires, persists, and gives purpose, for it is in the moment we reside. To make the best of each day, realize that your entire life lead to today the thing that matters most, is the present, your best friend, with the past as your ghost.

The summary of a life, is its social circle